A TOUCH NEVER FELT

How can you ache and crave for someone's touch
When you have never felt it?
I do this for yours, though,
And the yearning grows more each day
I have never wanted anything in my life
As much as I want you
When you whisper such sweet love
In my ear when we talk
You make me melt into a puddle
Of complete helplessness
You have become my every waking thought
And my every dream at night
I breathe in so hard
Trying to catch my breath when we can't talk
I close my eyes so tight
Hoping when I open them you will be there
But I know I have to wait
Until the time is right
It seems so far away
That I think I am losing my mind
I want to breathe in your scent
And keep it with me all day long
I want to taste your love for me
By kissing your sweet lips
I want to feel your body next to me
So when you leave for awhile
I can hold on I just want you to know
That I really do love you
When the day comes and we are together
You will always know and feel this
I will always hug, kiss and love you
Every moment of the day and night
...You will never have another touch unfelt

23 Oct 2007.....Mia is Mia

BUZZ!!!
BUZZ!!!
linda uwais: assalammualaikum is.....
Mumr Wise: wsalam
Mumr Wise: how r u dear
Mumr Wise: dun kill me okay
linda uwais: i will if i got the chance
Mumr Wise: since when u get ur internet connection back??
linda uwais: how r u
Mumr Wise: so and so dear
linda uwais: for u i try my very best
Mumr Wise: try what??
linda uwais: alhamdulillah im fine too with the kids
Mumr Wise: alhamdulillah
linda uwais: try to get the internet
Mumr Wise: really...
linda uwais: u not out fir lunch yet
Mumr Wise: what happen between u and ur hubby??
linda uwais: im rushing now to send my kids to sch
Mumr Wise: not yet...
linda uwais: pls dun asked me that
Mumr Wise: i had lunch with client later
linda uwais: cozz my time is limited now
Mumr Wise: okay dear
Mumr Wise: miss me??
linda uwais: what i want now i got the chnace to chat with u
Mumr Wise: me too
linda uwais: missed u
Mumr Wise: i wait 4 u night b4
linda uwais: is
linda uwais: mia
Mumr Wise: yes mia
linda uwais: ooo really
linda uwais: im around last nite
linda uwais: but u not
Mumr Wise: i am not...i am in bukit tinggi last night
linda uwais: issssssssssss
Mumr Wise: miaa
linda uwais: miaaaaaaaaaa
linda uwais: wkakakakakak
Mumr Wise:
linda uwais: really missed this ha
Mumr Wise: yeah...
linda uwais: is do u still mad at me
Mumr Wise: mia is
linda uwais: ia apa
Mumr Wise: i never mad at u
linda uwais: but i mad at u is
linda uwais: u really hurt me
Mumr Wise: i am mad at me and the situation we r only
linda uwais: no call
linda uwais: no nothings
Mumr Wise:
linda uwais: no birthday wish
linda uwais: u so bad ha
linda uwais: im gonna kill u
Mumr Wise: i am bad
Mumr Wise: sorry dera
linda uwais: r u happy is
Mumr Wise: dear
Mumr Wise: NO
linda uwais: coz im really happy NOW
Mumr Wise: not at all
linda uwais: y
Mumr Wise: why??
linda uwais: to be with u here again
Mumr Wise: coz of who I am
Mumr Wise: be here yes
linda uwais: mmm tak baik cakap mcm tu is
linda uwais: u a great guy to me is
Mumr Wise: dun say that
linda uwais: u dun nothing wrong to me is
linda uwais: thats for sure ok
Mumr Wise: great guy has gut
linda uwais: mmmmmmm
Mumr Wise: never act cowardly
Mumr Wise: willing to face life
linda uwais: pls dun say that is
Mumr Wise: but not this is
Mumr Wise: who bugg down with his life
linda uwais: pls
linda uwais: stop
linda uwais: if
Mumr Wise: not willing to take risk
linda uwais: u wanna chat with me NOW
linda uwais: is mia
linda uwais: is mia
Mumr Wise: yes
linda uwais: mia nak lunch dgn is bleh
Mumr Wise: bley
Mumr Wise: jom
linda uwais: so we can have a long chat
linda uwais: wkakakakakak
Mumr Wise: cantik baju raya mia
Mumr Wise: blue...my fav color
linda uwais: tq biasa je tu
Mumr Wise: i dun have any baju raya
Mumr Wise: tak raya pun
linda uwais: that y i choosed that colour
Mumr Wise: i am in osaka that time
linda uwais: ooo ite ke kesian is
linda uwais: osaka again
linda uwais: is
linda uwais: is
Mumr Wise: watching the window where i throw the HP
Mumr Wise: wakakakakakak
linda uwais: wkakakakakakak
linda uwais: that guy really stupid
Mumr Wise: i am going to osaka once a moth now
linda uwais: sorry to say that
linda uwais: ooo really
Mumr Wise: i am stupid
Mumr Wise: dun u realised that
linda uwais: but not stupid when with mia ok is
linda uwais: is mia
Mumr Wise: mia is
linda uwais: missed ur photo
linda uwais: i wanna see u is
Mumr Wise: what time u gonna fetch ur kids??
linda uwais: pls
linda uwais: bukan fetch lah nak hantar sekolah nie
Mumr Wise: see me???
linda uwais: id dh lupa ke ha
Mumr Wise: oic
linda uwais: mmmmmm
Mumr Wise: hehehehehehe
linda uwais: im out later at 12.35pm
Mumr Wise: u have my pic mia??
linda uwais: my hubby will be around in the afternoon later
linda uwais: no
Mumr Wise: ooo okay
linda uwais: u bz today i the office is
Mumr Wise: yeah a bit
linda uwais: wonder how pak samad n maiza ya
Mumr Wise: i had meeting later
linda uwais: mmmm ok
Mumr Wise: then dinner tonight
Mumr Wise: they all ok
Mumr Wise: just wondering about me
linda uwais: did u received my morning wish at ur hp just now?
Mumr Wise: i not so much talkative since
linda uwais: mmmmm mia faham tu is
Mumr Wise: yeah i did
Mumr Wise: that why i on my YM
Mumr Wise: tq
linda uwais: happy n surprised???
Mumr Wise: yeah happy...
linda uwais: mmmmm really
linda uwais: so cutelah u nie is
Mumr Wise: hahahahaha
linda uwais: mia ingat u dh tak mahu layan sms mia lagi
linda uwais: hahahahahahah
linda uwais: so all this while mia hantar sms is bacalah ya
Mumr Wise: yup..
linda uwais: tapi tak brani nak balas
Mumr Wise: yup
linda uwais: is...is....
Mumr Wise: yup
linda uwais: ingatkan hp tu pun dh di campak mcm di osaka
linda uwais: wkakakakakakakakaakak
linda uwais: issssssssssssssss
linda uwais: mana is nie
linda uwais: isssssssssssssss
linda uwais: isssssssssssssss
BUZZ!!!
linda uwais: hahahahahahah
Mumr Wise: ada ada
Mumr Wise: miss u too
Mumr Wise: heheheheh
linda uwais: do u read what i try tadi
linda uwais: scroll up if u missed that part
linda uwais: heheheheh
Mumr Wise: tak campak
Mumr Wise: tak on jer
Mumr Wise: seldom on my hp
linda uwais: luckily tak campak kalau tak mia.......
linda uwais: is mia
Mumr Wise: yes dear
linda uwais: mia got to go
Mumr Wise: okay dear
Mumr Wise: gonna miss u again
linda uwais: me too
linda uwais: is
Mumr Wise: STOP
linda uwais: Nooooooooooo
linda uwais: hehehehehe
Mumr Wise:
Mumr Wise: START
Mumr Wise: Saya
linda uwais: im happy is
Mumr Wise: Terus
Mumr Wise: Akan
Mumr Wise: Rasa
Mumr Wise: Rindu
Mumr Wise: Tanpa Mu
linda uwais:
linda uwais: tq is
Mumr Wise: Saya
Mumr Wise: Tak akan
Mumr Wise: Off
Mumr Wise: Percintaan ini
Mumr Wise:
linda uwais: SAYA SALINDA BINTE ISMAIL
Mumr Wise:
linda uwais: TAKUT MENGATAKAN
linda uwais: APA YANG TERSIMPAN DI HATI INI
linda uwais: RASA SAYANG MASIH TERSIRAT DI HATI INI
linda uwais: PADA INSAN BERNAMA MOHD UWAIS...
linda uwais: is mia
linda uwais: mia harus pergi sekarang
Mumr Wise: okay
Mumr Wise: bye
Mumr Wise: \assalamualiku
linda uwais: wait
linda uwais: pls dun say bye
Mumr Wise: okay
Mumr Wise: cya
linda uwais: is save what we type just now in our blog ok
linda uwais: im gonna read it later tonite insyaallah
linda uwais: will u is
Mumr Wise: okay
linda uwais: tq is
linda uwais: ok is have a nice day
Mumr Wise: okay

IS...

Assalammualaikum...

Is...Terimakasih Mia ucapkan di atas segalanya...Seperti Is, Mia juga melalui hari2 ini dengan penuh ketabahan di samping anak2 dan keluarga...Mia selalu menyebut nama Is di setiap akhir solat dan mendoakan kesejahteraan Is sekeluarga...Kerna ini sahaja yang dapat Mia berikan utk Is walaupun kita tidak bersama...InsyaALLAH kita akan di lindungi dan di berkati olehNYA selalu...InsyaALLAH...

Is...Mia tetap seperti dulu cuma bezanya sekarang Mia mudah sensitive bila mendengar lagu2 yang menyentuh tentang CINTA dan PERPISAHAN...Mia mudah terasa hati dan akan membayangi wajah Is yang telah lama jauh dari diri Mia ini...Mia rindu saat2 waktu kita bersama di blog, ym dan telephone...Terutama my morning wake up called to u...Hope u still remembered that Is...Mmmmmm is so nice to remember all that wonderful time Is...

Wonder when will be the time we can break the record again ya??? Wkakakakaka
Whatever it is Mia really happy to know someone like u Is...U great guy that always make me smile n happy...So when is ur next trip to Singapore??? Mmmmm wanna date with me???? Hahahahahahah im still waiting for that day to come....

Is...Mia...

Mia apa ya???? Ooooooo Mia nak kawin dgn Is.....Bleh ke atau Is dah ada yang baru dalam hidup Is??? Hehehehe...Oklah Mia tak mahu usik2 Is lagilah...Is nak tanya nie...Kalau Mia ke Malaysia boleh ke kita bertemu??? Masih sudi ke Is dengan Mia nie ye???

Yang pasti Mia akan tetap tunggu Is di blog nie...InsyaALLAH...

always me silkunggu...

Without You

I miss you so much day and night
I can't understand why I am...what I am
I just think I treat you so BADLY...
And You Don't deserved to be treated like this...
but now I'm again alone in my own world....without You

The days without you are so long
these days - without your words and love
and I know what I've done wrong...so wrong
I've been thinking of this for a while...
A few questions that I need to know...
why does my heart feel so bad ?
why could I ever hurt you (us) so ?
why can't I get you out of my head ?

....Now I'm standing here alone
with this weight upon my heart
wondering what has happen to us...
remembering our feelings from the start
In my mind I have all my memories are so clear
each moment spent with you in here
is unforgettable

I know you will pull trough without me by your side
The only thing I want is to be with you...at least in here
Don't you know that you make my days count?
And I'm always happy when you're around
it doesn't matter what we do
as long as I'm here with YOU...Mia

Mia....Is....

Mia....

I am sorry.....no other words is suitable for my attitude, behaviour, cowardness,.....other than sorry...

my life is never the same since we met....but I am not strong to go on.....

I cannot face myself....anymore....

My heart are shattered in pieces.....broken..Not by ur love....but by my own self

I was accused as a devilish human by my families....Dad, mom, grandma.....a man that broke other people happiness, marriage and family....

Mia...thanks...U make me strong enuf to hold on....

How r u....?? Kids??? Life???

I Am OK......celebrate my birthday & Hariraya.....u guest where???

Maaf kan Is mia....

Maafkan is dari hujung rambut ke hujung kaki.....kerana mengecewakan mia

U wasted all ur love on me.....and I will never forgive myself for that...

U r always in me......maybe we not meant to be together...

Or maybe i am not good for u......a bad man dun deserved a wise lady like U...Allah tahu mia..

Alhamdulilah Is dapat puasa penuh......coz of U

I prayed more than I ever prayed in my life....

I dun even wish u birthday.....what a man am I??

Mia Is Sedih....

Maafkan is
Maafkan is

Kalau mia izinkan akan is teruskan blog ini....

Thanks for all the kind words.....and birthday wishes.....

U r something Mia....after all what happen.....

Thanks....

Is malu

Is Jahat

Is takut

Is malu dgn mia dan Allah.....

Is mungkir

Is...entah semuanya yang tak baik....

HAPPY 34TH BIRTHDAY TO U MOHD UWAIS...( OCT 17TH 2007)...

Especially to Mohd Uwais...

Happy 34th Birthday...May u have a wonderful day starting with today...InsyaALLAH...

Take care n be happy always...

Always me silkunggu...

UNTUKMU IS...

Assalammualaikum Is....

Sebelum Mia meneruskan coretan ini, terlebih dahulu Mia ingin memohon kemaafan di atas segala kesilapan yang telah Mia lakukan sepanjang perkenalan kita di ruangan blog ini...Tidak pernah Mia bayangkan kita akan bertemu dan berkenalan di sini...Tapi semua ini yang berlaku adalah dariNYA dan perpisahan kita juga adalah atas dariNYA jua...Namun tidak pernah Mia kesali dengan apa yang telah terjadi...Namun Mia akan abadikan perkenalan ini sampai bila2 di lubuk hati kecil ini...InsyaALLAH...

Is...Semenjak peristiwa 12hb Septembar 2007 yang lalu, bermulalah sebuah kehancuran...Di bulan Ramadhan yang mulia di mana kita semua umat Islam akan memulakan amalan ibadah puasa, Mia telah melalui ujian dariNYA...Ujian di antara CINTA...KELUARGA...SEGALANYA...Kerna CINTA Mia tabahkan hati dan berani mempertahankannya...Mia cuba jelaskan segalanya yang tersimpan di lubuk hati Mia di saat dan ketika itu...Namun demi KELUARGA Mia tidak dapat membohongi diri Mia ini...Oleh itu SEGALANYA musnah dan Mia merasa begitu sedih di saat itu...

Is...Mia mengerti mengapa Is menjauhkan diri dari Mia...Mia tidak perlu penjelasan dari Is kerna bagi Mia ini adalah yang terbaik untuk kita berdua...Cuma satu yang harus Is ingat sampai bila2 jua bahawa Mia akan tetap mengingati Is dan terutama blog ini...'Mia Is Enough'...Terimakasih atas segalanya Is...U really a good fren to me here...Is...Mia...

Is....Mia harus pergi sekarang dan insyaALLAH suatu saat kita pasti bertemu...InsyaALLAH...Untuk Is di bulan Syawal yang mulia ini Mia mohon maaf zahir dan batin dan SELAMAT HARI RAYA...wkakakakakakak sorrylah kalau Mia lambat beri ucapan nie ya....Dari itu semoga Is akan selalu bahagia di samping keluarga dan insan yang Is sayangi...Selamat maju jaya dalam pekerjaan Is...Selalulah berada di sisiNYA di waktu senang ataupun susah kerna insyaALLAH dialah yang mahu mengetahui dan mengampuni segalanya...

Is...Suara dan wajahmu telah lama sepi dari ingatanku...
Is...Tapi namamu tetap terukir di hati kecilku ini walaupun ia hanya seketika...
Is...Oleh itu akan aku abadikan segalanya yang terpatri di antara kita...
Is...Perkenalan...Percintaan...Perasaan...Perjanjian...Perpisahan...hanyalah untuk kita berdua...


always me...silkunggu